CARNIVAL x DoII is a recreated short film extracted from an
intermedial live performance intertwined with the screening of my experimental
short film DoII, which was directed,
written and designed all by myself. The actor of DoII functioned as my
doppelganger since I was directing, acting, choreographing and dancing in the
meantime with him on site. Therefore, CARNIVAL x DoII became a two-layer
accumulated performance where two entangled subjects echo each other across spatial-temporal dimensions.
When the actor in the screening roared, I
roared. I danced to the music with its tempo and melody accurately because I
wrote the music. I gave an improvisational monologue, responding to the plot
when the actor received domestic violence. I wrote on the paper while
interpreting my stream-of-consciousness thoughts. I said, “Humans are sometimes very stupid and
hard to deal with”, while I was scratching the paper with charcoals
meaninglessly. “I don’t know what I’m actually doing right now, even…I’m
stupid. Art is stupid. I’m doing shit… just like Marcel Duchamp’s
urinal. But we can contextualise it. We make meanings out of
nothing. If a thing is meaningless, and that’s its meaning”.
I reached out my hands and tried to touch and
soothe the actor in the projected film. I drew many cross marks on the paper
and slammed the floor. I crouched and buried my head in my arms. I drew many
cross marks throughout my body with a red pastel stick. Then I synced with the
actor’s dance performance, which I choreographed and directed, and danced to
the music; I also sang the melody which I composed. I dropped one pastel onto
my face. Then I slowly, quietly and repeatedly drew circles with different colours
of charcoals and pastels, diverging outward from me as the centre, by hand and
foot. I stared at the flower funeral of the doll, which I designed, and wrote
down “I love flowers”. I said my life motto is “Make it blossom” but I
rubbed my fingertips delicately. At last, I looked at the red cross marks on my
left arm, saying “It’s painful” twice. I ended up crouching.
