From her childhood to teenager she liked to draw on the wall and on her clothes at home so much. When she was in high school, she was selected for a mural contest on the wall of the school construction, and her painting was also painted on the wall of the high school. After graduating from Gyewon Art High School, She attended the Western Painting Department of Sung-shin Women's University for 4 years.
Unlike the current artistic values of HL Saayu (an artist who puts more emphasis on the depth of the message to be conveyed through the creation than on realistic portrayals), She was very interested in realistic portrayals skill that represented the characteristics of what was seen as it was until her 20s.
After the period of 20s(of her) which fiercely explored the chaotic human nature of themselves, others, and society After returning to school in her 30s and entering her fourth year of college, she looks at art from a different perspective than before.
She who was looking for the way to be 'a true(=mature) artist which the position’ to convey "touching emotion and beauty (really needed by self and people) and at the same time free himself as an act of art," one day got an iniration, such as enlightenment, that comes from the depths of her heart. It was definitely a response to long-standing aspirations and That response leads her to know the first step she had to walk as the artist.
Her first step as an artist for herself, which she realized, was to focus on identifying, checking, deeply reflecting, and aligning none other than the essence of her art( = her software = the organizer and director of the act of art = the artist's own mind and ego). And the work was like a path of silence.
This allowed the artist to feel free and regain her soul's freedom like a visually impaired person's experience of regaining the vision day by day, both as artists and as human beings.
She’s been checking them such like incomprehensible life.., the paradigm components of her ego injected before and after her life, parents, family, households, The needs and boundaries of these factors, the work of looking at and understanding the consciousness of society, history, and culture at home and abroad, Default value in ego, and after that, various input values added from society, viruses, etc. And she's tried to learn and seek that how to throw out the bad seeds and how to grow good seeds or how to plant the new good seeds. She has been constantly trying to understand her soul and personality, which are the main ingredients of art, and believing this as the life energy that gives the artist breath.
Thr cicadas come out after living underground for seven years to cry throughout the one summer, She says I feel like I've taken my first step into the world when I turned 51 like a cicadas.
About Her Artist Name :
* Her artist name is HL Saayu. 사유(Saayu) is a word of act of essential contemplation about something in Korean. In addition it corresponds to the combination of the first letters of '사랑'의 '유산'(heritage of love), (= 'HL' also the same in english.) And the other meaing from the first and last alphabet of 'Love you,(사랑해유)'
* She says, ''We are all born of a herritage of love, able to live our lives by inheriting intangible and tangible heritage cultures, such as genes and various cultural heritages, and we also leave the herritage of loving love to future generations. As a result, therefor Herritage of Love is seen as human identity''
HL Saayu. / Real name: Kim E Room / Birthday: April 18, 1975 / Hometown: Sinseol-dong, Seoul, Republic of Korea / Educational background: Sungshin Women's University studied Western Painting for 4 years
Award history: :
* Contest - Elected to a temporary wall mural contest for school construction in high school
* When she was a senior in college, she won the Christian Art Exhibition in Korea
a first-year leave of absence
Period of leave of absence(about 10 years):
among her experience >
an art education instructor, fashion design, body art, urban art, film special art, learning music midi composition etc.
HL Saayu's Growth Background
Internationally, The artist HL Saayu with Korean nationality and historical background have a background of growing up to be deeply traumatized by violence caused by war and irrational power, which is a sudden and violent threat to life.
Her great-grandparents and grandparents, who had to go through 35 years of the brutal colonial war of Japan's annihilation, And an artist born to parents who had to go through the Korean War that followed with their grandparents, had to take the war evacuation simulation training , which has been in place since the ceasefire, until graduated from middle school.
The Artist was born by inheriting the love and potential of their ancestors, who sacrificed and devoted themselves and for their family and the nation to overcome the crisis of an extremely poor country. also a position that inherited long-standing national crises, fears, chaotic mental suffering, and various wishes and desires created in this process.
The artist who was born between The paternal line, which inherited the idea of classism and the Confucian authoritarianism of the male preference and a matriarch who inherited the sentiments of a simple, free, ordinary farmer, far from authority.
In childhood and adolescence, the physical growth periodThe artist had to got through the many difficulties in enduring and understanding everything of her life. Due to the conflict between parents and their two families' values and due to ‘communication and respect's absence with anyone for understand her identity and position. That period was a time when she had to endure self-inflicted insults, accusations, and alienation in a school and other society due to the sense of damage caused by this.
In particular, the unresolved conflict between parents and the conflict between the two families over it was also an opportunity to vividly learn how much it negatively affects the growth of children's personality and various abilities
In her vulnerable emotional state, the young artist, a child HL Saayu, the youth, had to encounter many relationships with sick and vulnerable violent immature teachers, and without progressing to understanding and learning about life, she developed many misunderstandings about herself and her life. Unnecessary complaints about herself's body and soul began to emerge, and she finally turned a blind eye to herself and led a life of hiding behind her persona. Without knowing who she was. The power to show off money and abilities that others could not overcome, and to make one precious partner and one friend became the primary goal of her life in her 20s, when no one knew about it. Deep down was the desire to be good to her parents and be recognized by her parents and family.
Through this process, she develops self-esteem, healthy narcissism, and an intense thirst for freedom, love, and peace.
And that thirst, has been guiding to the way of deep enlightenment about 'communication, truth, spirit of respect, and the value of learning and knowledge about these, and the importance of growth' the most necessary element to solve and achieve them. The artist says that this was the value of life, the main lessons that were profoundly enlightened throughout his entire life.
* Others: The beginning of the Korean era, where artist HL Thought lived, was in the developing world in 1975, when most people sacrificed day and night for their families, forgetting their identity, in order to diligently overcome poverty at that time. Through this period, Korea reached emerging industrial countries, and took off again and experienced changes in the times that rank among developed countries. From the black-and-white TV days to the color TV days, the culture of learning abacus and typing to computers, from beeper to smartphones, artist, HL Saayu has seen and experienced changes from analog to digital AI, and has a background of living through moving from totalitarianism generation to era of the extreme individualism generation to this day in the south Korea.
