Max Anish Gowriah. 17:40
My work really help me to rationalise my irrationality . Make a sense of my mess and move on. I’ve only recently learnt to surrender to the flow. It took me a while to want to put my Art out there because i did not have much control over it. It came like periodical massive waves of inspiration and sometimes went through periods of droughts that left me worried and thirsty for more. Instability was one of my biggest fears and i am learning to simmer in it. Nevertheless some of my best works have been when i just permitted myself to lose control.
I admire and respect what is done through me and i allow myself to interpret my work only after having done it. I’m often left in wonder whilst finishing paintings and drawings because i then have to figure out what they are trying to tell me. I would say my role is only pinpointing to people and showing them what’s beautiful to my eyes, hoping they’ll see the beauty i see. I am the artist as I am the audience.
I’ve always advised people to use their time of grief, anger and hurt to create work because when better time comes, it feels good to know that the hurt and anger was not useless and something came out of it. I’ve been doing it for 5 years now and it really helped me mentally and spiritually. . 3 years ago i started timing my work, and it really only then became a sort of journaling of hidden thoughts that has been subconsciously influencing me. It really feels like an inner journey of trying to get through exterior influences and learning to trust the source of it all.
I think the time became as special to me as the art itself because it is as if i am trying to catch the time. Millions of babies are being born in a second around the world and i just finished a drawing or painting at that exact time.
I really want to make my parents proud because they really find it hard to understand a mess like me but i know, I am an organised mess.
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