This painting is very dear to me. After my grandfather died in Aug 2019 I was not able to paint... Read More
This painting is very dear to me. After my grandfather died in Aug 2019 I was not able to paint for months. I started this work in early December 2019. Now if I look at it, I get a little scared as I sometimes interpret it as the Covid Virus...
When I started this work, I was wondering, what life and death mean to me and what is the purpose of Life itself. Did I doubted why am I living and what for after grandpa died? Yes. It was devastating and I tried to distract myself from not think about him. With the broken heart and the question of "why" and "what" I started to choose a color that I am always using when I am heartbroken: red. I wanted to capture my inner pain and my future in one picture. So there was no concept behind it. Just the desire to capture my feelings and to get a glimpse into the future for new hope.