Paranoia is one of the
psychiatric disorders characterized by suffering from anxiety, or fear through
excessive stress having a delusion such as victimization where others always
criticize oneself, or an exaggeration that one is different from the others, or
love. Other than having a delusion, it is characterized by personality and
vocational abilities that are not different from those of ordinary people;
moreover, paranoia is not just a pathological abnormality but is hidden under
all human consciousness.
People encounter
uncontrollable feelings such as anxiety, fear, jealousy, anger, desire, or
inferiority while interacting with others. The uncontrollable feelings may use
theatrical methods of voice, words, expressions, and gestures as a weapon, and
make the other have invisible blood. And I am not an exception but it is a
piece of puzzle that makes me have the invisible blood.
People are living with
hurt and suffering; they are pierced with various mental holes, wanting those
holes to be filled, but gouging the wound deeper or wider. If the mind has a
shape, I wonder whether anyone could have an intact/innocent mind as they are
born.
Stress with strength
forces our nerves to travel the gray zone between normal and abnormal. I wonder
if that abnormality spreads like the butterfly-effect, and if those affects
spread from one individual to an organization, which is a set of individuals,
or even a country which is a set of organizations. It is like today’s Japan.
Our fragile drama,
wandering between the stress of pianissimo and fortissimo, plays today a
humorous, serious, cruel, overwhelming melody, perfect in its unsaved, creepy,
and beautiful paranoia.
