"Expressive Abstract Experiment No.1 - Void Within the Flower Sea, Purposeless Wanderings"
Dimensions: 170×110 centimeters (cm)
This artwork is currently my greatest challenge, and also the most bewildering and experimental piece. I aim to break free from the constraints of conventional frameworks and try leaving certain areas blank. Perhaps I haven't reached a certain level yet, but new attempts always make me eager to try.
I try to leave some brushstrokes visible, as they should naturally exist. Brushstrokes are a way for artists to leave behind traces of their souls, but I personally resist it. I dislike showcasing myself; it's probably just my nature. I am not fond of leaving visible brushstrokes, partly because of my inherent self-doubt that always lingers.
Painting allows me to gradually improve some of my thoughts and feelings of inadequacy, which is quite important to me. I tend to see things in a negative light, as it helps me avoid disappointment. While painting, I find myself pondering more about various things - both good and bad, things I have done in the past, regrets, and even moments of happiness.
When I paint, I enjoy disrupting the sense of balance and then reconstructing it on that foundation. The way I use colors is based on this process. Perhaps I inherently enjoy breaking things first, then fixing them, and relishing the process of restoration. It feels therapeutic.
